Some days/nights I spend my time thinking him not good enough and that I’m a failure in everything I do, I think back on things I thought I was over only to find I’m not…..and I try to use the strategies that my therapist gave me but they don’t work all the time and I just spiral downward….. At the moment I can feel that I am really heading towards that, and I can’t do anything to stop it other than just acting fine…..and it’s hard to enjoy things now that the things I enjoy only bring me pain…